I need to work on my freedom or I will have to hold myself in contempt of heart
There is something strange about being up at 4 in the morning and knowing I have gotten more than 8 hours of sleep the night before. Thank goodness this is the last time I have to deal with that for a while.
But anyway, today is inventory at TRU, and getting prepared for it has been quite the fun task. I have had the "honor" of getting the baby section up to scratch, which hasn't been too hard, but hasn't been too easy either. Part of the problem for me has been getting the peg sections of the various aisles set to the point where there was only one kind of item on a peg, so scanning it into the system today would result in a more accurate count. For example, I had to make sure that although some blankets might look the same, if they didn't have the same SKN number (that's the number that identifies what it is in the system) then I had to move it somewhere else. That was my most fun aisle, the blanket aisle. I am still amazed at being able to make it all work, for the most part. God was definitely on my side. I was getting so bored and angry back there since all I did yesterday was check peg items and make sure all was okay, and the music wasn't playing in the background for some reason, and without it I became tired and bored and considerably more irritable. But eventually I thought about how I didn't have to be annoyed, I could work on it and roll with it and entertain myself in my head or by singing out loud or something. Plus I admired the cleverness with which I handled the situation. This is going to be fun counting everything out today!
But I have noticed over the past few days especially that there really is a strong truth to being careful who you spend your time with, as they affect what kind of person you are. As far as I know, and I could be totally wrong, but based on behavior no one else on third/early morning shift would seem to be Christian. I base this especially on the kind of jokes and comments made by just about everyone. I usually remain quiet and don't laugh at a lot of the jokes they say, but sometimes I just can't help myself, and either enjoy the humor or wind up saying something I really shouldn't. It also doesn't help that there is a girl who flirts with me a lot, even though she has a boyfriend. It is very tempting sometimes to flirt back and say things that are not appropriate, and sometimes I have unfortunately given in to those temptations. But today things will be too distracting with inventory to hopefully keep me focused on the task. I'm not going to be naive enough to think that nothing will happen, but I can at least have something big to focus on to help distract me.
I also have to wonder about making judgments, too. There is a guy, a new World Leader (which is the TRU term for a supervisor of a particular section, or "world") who happens to have under his jurisdiction the baby section. I don't know much about him. I haven't even seen much of him anyway. All I really know I have gotten from Shelia and a bit from my sister (and the impression I have gotten in passing by overhearing conversations from some of the other shifts at work). This overall assessment of this individual has been predominantly negative, that he is a jerk (and more unpleasant terms, but I don't want to run the risk of putting up bad words on my blog, thank you very much). He came in on Tuesday morning and my defensive shields went up, but after a little time I began to wonder if I wasn't basing too much of my opinion of this guy on what others said. Granted, by the time my shift was over I had some doubts about his decision making, but I was giving him more of a benefit of the doubt. With any luck, it won't matter much longer.
Which turns me to the job hunt. I really need to get a job in Kalamazoo. I know, I have been whining about it a lot lately. I need to get a job there because Satan really has been using this as a foothold into my heart and it tears me away from my service and worship of Christ. I am frustrated right now. I get tired a lot, don't feel I am as able to accomplish goals while I am in Grand Rapids, and miss my friends terribly. I already have to deal with missing Japan terribly, I am wondering how many things I can grow fonder of in my absence. I was made for crazy little friend adventures, and I don't get to have them when I'm stuck going to bed at 9 if I want a good night's sleep. And this stinks.
But anyway, I'm going to see if I can't get some reading in before I have to officially "get up" for work. I already have gotten in some quiet time Bible studying this morning. Although I will be tired early today, and will again nap because of it, it is refreshing to see me getting in this time right away in the morning even when I have to get up so freakishly early.
But anyway, today is inventory at TRU, and getting prepared for it has been quite the fun task. I have had the "honor" of getting the baby section up to scratch, which hasn't been too hard, but hasn't been too easy either. Part of the problem for me has been getting the peg sections of the various aisles set to the point where there was only one kind of item on a peg, so scanning it into the system today would result in a more accurate count. For example, I had to make sure that although some blankets might look the same, if they didn't have the same SKN number (that's the number that identifies what it is in the system) then I had to move it somewhere else. That was my most fun aisle, the blanket aisle. I am still amazed at being able to make it all work, for the most part. God was definitely on my side. I was getting so bored and angry back there since all I did yesterday was check peg items and make sure all was okay, and the music wasn't playing in the background for some reason, and without it I became tired and bored and considerably more irritable. But eventually I thought about how I didn't have to be annoyed, I could work on it and roll with it and entertain myself in my head or by singing out loud or something. Plus I admired the cleverness with which I handled the situation. This is going to be fun counting everything out today!
But I have noticed over the past few days especially that there really is a strong truth to being careful who you spend your time with, as they affect what kind of person you are. As far as I know, and I could be totally wrong, but based on behavior no one else on third/early morning shift would seem to be Christian. I base this especially on the kind of jokes and comments made by just about everyone. I usually remain quiet and don't laugh at a lot of the jokes they say, but sometimes I just can't help myself, and either enjoy the humor or wind up saying something I really shouldn't. It also doesn't help that there is a girl who flirts with me a lot, even though she has a boyfriend. It is very tempting sometimes to flirt back and say things that are not appropriate, and sometimes I have unfortunately given in to those temptations. But today things will be too distracting with inventory to hopefully keep me focused on the task. I'm not going to be naive enough to think that nothing will happen, but I can at least have something big to focus on to help distract me.
I also have to wonder about making judgments, too. There is a guy, a new World Leader (which is the TRU term for a supervisor of a particular section, or "world") who happens to have under his jurisdiction the baby section. I don't know much about him. I haven't even seen much of him anyway. All I really know I have gotten from Shelia and a bit from my sister (and the impression I have gotten in passing by overhearing conversations from some of the other shifts at work). This overall assessment of this individual has been predominantly negative, that he is a jerk (and more unpleasant terms, but I don't want to run the risk of putting up bad words on my blog, thank you very much). He came in on Tuesday morning and my defensive shields went up, but after a little time I began to wonder if I wasn't basing too much of my opinion of this guy on what others said. Granted, by the time my shift was over I had some doubts about his decision making, but I was giving him more of a benefit of the doubt. With any luck, it won't matter much longer.
Which turns me to the job hunt. I really need to get a job in Kalamazoo. I know, I have been whining about it a lot lately. I need to get a job there because Satan really has been using this as a foothold into my heart and it tears me away from my service and worship of Christ. I am frustrated right now. I get tired a lot, don't feel I am as able to accomplish goals while I am in Grand Rapids, and miss my friends terribly. I already have to deal with missing Japan terribly, I am wondering how many things I can grow fonder of in my absence. I was made for crazy little friend adventures, and I don't get to have them when I'm stuck going to bed at 9 if I want a good night's sleep. And this stinks.
But anyway, I'm going to see if I can't get some reading in before I have to officially "get up" for work. I already have gotten in some quiet time Bible studying this morning. Although I will be tired early today, and will again nap because of it, it is refreshing to see me getting in this time right away in the morning even when I have to get up so freakishly early.
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