25 June, 2006

Things revealed, although the situation has changed

So, the situation that I have been talking about revealing: well, things have changed, yet there are still some things that need to happen that are very much the same.
So here's the sitch: I have a friend, who is a girl, who shall remain nameless, who has been sort of wreaking havoc not only with my emotions, but also giving lots of other people cause to wonder whether or not she either liked me, or was interested in a number of other guys. She's a bit of a flirt, but in a way that really makes one not be sure what the heck her intentions are.
But to make matters considerably more interesting, she has, at least until recently, taken to calling me on a fairly regular basis, as well as using me as a means to keep her out of boredom, randomly showing up at my house, taking over my bed, and popping in a movie. I actually had to ask her to leave at midnight one Sunday evening because I had to get to bed for work the next morning.
Now, this is a girl who I really knew I shouldn't date or anything, and didn't necessarily have feelings for, but when she'd cuddle into me and give me looks and flirt and whatever else, I have to admit I started considering the possibility of the two of us getting together. I have had to consult some of my roommates and a mutual friend of the girl's and mine in order to get advice as to what to do. They all suggest having a talk with her. Unfortunately, I haven't taken the time to actually have that happen. We haven't seen each other much in the last couple of weeks, which has been kind of nice, but as she's leaving town next week, if I don't have this talk, not only will I feel the coward, but also it may lead to some weirdness come the fall. And I really feel like this is a conversation that I should have.
But to make things interesting, this girl knows something about me that not a lot of people know. It's not a bad thing, but it is something that is kind of confusing, and she doesn't really understand and has kind of misconstrued some things because of it. She apparently has some questions, but she's unwilling to ask, and if she doesn't ask, I feel she will probably never truly get it. Perhaps this is something that will come up during the eventual and necessary conversation, but I don't know. At the very least, it has helped me to at least for the most part cut the heartstrings that kept me kind of attached to her. Which is really the best thing I could have hoped for.
So there you go, the situation or whatever I called it has finally been described, if in an altered way. Thus concludes me updating all of my blogs: Blogger, Xanga, Livejournal, Facebook (a blog of sorts, but not really) and MySpace.

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